i just realised that i had replaced a whole chapter of notes which i had consolidated so hard from both my textbook and the notes. i can feel the angst but what to do???!!! ouch. that hurts. is there no other way to get back my previous data? who says technology is good and efficient? it's making my work even slower now! it saves any-o-how, and i can't even retrieve my previous data. =(

every rest day is so boring...

should i stay or should i not? i probably have to tell audrey earlier that i have to leave early because i'm going to find ben! :D but i don't know when to tell her because she's a little temperamental due to her pregnancy nowadays. i'm scared... hopefully the project will end earlier so i can leave peacefully. haha. sounds wrong. =P

haha. this is how i look like after one week of rebonding and the cutting of hair. i think what elaine said is true. the hair seemed to curl a little now looking at the fringe. i think my hair seems to be not as smooth. probably that's because i didn't use the shampoo and conditioner which she had recommended that we at least use them for a month. elaine said she won't be going back to because she like the super-straight-like-curtain-but-still-smooth-and-silky type but this one looks more natural. i think i might not be going back too since my hair is curling after one week plus too. and i see a few strands of damaged hair here and there. maybe it's because of the change in method of rebonding. furthermore my hair is not cut very properly. one side is more inwards than the other.. have to rectify the problem before cny. brrr...

SO SORRY ELAINE!

i went to rebond my hair with elaine and got a new look. my first time ever to cut a bob.

see, not bad right? probably have to cut the fringe thicker and will go cut again before cny.

red the hairdress was brainwashing us to buy the shampoo and conditioner and what-not the moment we stepped inside her salon. i didn't like it. she told us that the products were from japan and elaine found out it was formula from japan but made in malaysia. would you accept that?

i suppose there are many cases like this nowadays where the main company find cheaper places to manufacture their products, but is it ethical or justify the expensive price for the products with recipes or formula from a more superior country? just like the biscuits we're eating now might contain a recipe from korea/japan but manufacture in china. then they charge an exorbitant price because of their origins and people flock over to buy. it's just the name. essentially, people choose what they wish to believe.

how vague my memories of the past is. when ben questioned me on my past, i couldn't seem to remember lots of the facts and dates. maybe my life is so monotonous that there's nothing much to store in my memories, or probably my mind has blocked some memories unintentionally. my life is a day-to-day basis and perhaps this is the reason why i'm much happier than others. not living in the shadows of the past and not expecting too much from the future, just living in the present like receiving gifts each day...

i was looking through my past entries and realised how young and innocent i was. 5 full years i've spent blogging, and yet when i look back, i didn't really record many beautiful memories. time passes swiftly and before i remember to note them down, the days are gone and i couldn't recall them anymore.

how unexpressive i was then, though i'm equally unexpressive now, but i think i was worse then. the use of words and the sentence structure are so simple. lots of random pictures admist the blog entries because i was so amazed at the new technology being able to upload photos and pictures onto the webs. and now, the fuller utilization of my own webpage seems to differ so much from the past one-sentence-and-one-picture style of blogging. even photo-taking and photo-sharing don't require as much of an effort as the past where one needs to develop the photos and scan them before sending to friends. and dear me, the attachment speed then was horrendous and msn was so laggy it seems like forever to transfer just one file.

and here i am, sitting in front of the computer, typing a 2000 word essay which would have cost me a few weeks in the past. i still remember we used to do projects on colourful vanguard sheet and print exhaustive information which we don't understand to paste on the plain papers. that would take a few weeks! but now with computer, everything is done conveniently at one's comfort.

anyway, my point is that i haven't blogged for a long long time and things have changed quite a bit. my memories never stopped updating just like the technology and when the old stuffs get outdated, i never bother to retrieve them anymore. that's just me.